I Haven't Got A Clue if You're The One

I haven't posted since Friday. How sad. ): I wish I had posted more often but, I'm just really out of it. With everything. With Yellow, school, family, Vince. Everything. I've been really sick lately, so I've missed two days of practice which makes me really upset. I want to be in the water. But I can't seem to move. My meds make me drowsy as heck, and I slept the whole day away today. I'm ecstatic from choir banquet and the start of summer school. Summer love? Haha. Perhaps not.

Nothing I'm saying makes sense. I realize that. But I'm grateful. Because I was supposed to go to practice yesterday and see Pink, but I was sick. So I told Pink, and he said something along the lines of seeing me. I forgot his exact words because I deleted the text but it showed me that he cares if he sees me or not. Pink is such a great guy.

I have yet to receive a letter from Yellow. I miss him beyond belief. But I have too much planned this week. I'm going to be alright. At least I hope so.

I'm grateful that Jie realizes that something's wrong. That I'm out of it. I'll be fine.

Super short post. I know. But my mind and heart are elsewhere. All I want is a hug from Pink. Why Pink? I don't know why. I just want a hug from him. Did I mention Pink came along with me and my family to have graduation dinner with us? Everytime I was telling a story or something, I'd see out of the corner of my eye that he was listening. The waiter at Sundae Bistro was a jerk. He wouldn't let us play cards. ): And he said he's asked us 5 times already to not play cards. And I remember thinking, what you smoking!? You never said anything to me! My family and all were really upset at the guy for being so rude, so we didn't leave a tip. Pink suggested we left a penny to piss him off. I thought it was funny, but my parents were like No! The waiter's not worth it. I glared at the fat waiter the whole night and Pink followed my gaze. He's a great guy.

I'm still waiting for a letter because I felt as if I've lost you. Remind me that you're still here. That you still care about me. That you're thinking of me. I miss you Yellow.

Currently listening to: Bring Me Flowers - Hope
Just A Dream - Carrie Underwood