At Last, It Is Over.

Today was the last day of school. And I have so much to say. It was perhaps one of the worst last days of schools I've ever had. First I get stopped by a damn narc because I wore sandals to school. It was the last day of school. I didn't think it was a big deal. He let me go afterwards. There's a funny story that goes with it but I'm honestly am not in the mood to talk about anything funny right. I'm so extremely tired. In first period, I was talking to Lily and she accidentally slips out that my best friend, Vince, is moving to Texas. You know what hurts? That he wasn't the one to tell me. I wasn't sure what to believe. I wanted it so much to be a rumor. However, when I saw him during second, I asked him what he was doing this summer. He replied, "Nothing." I immediately screeched, "LIAR!" Surprise overcame him. "How'd you find out?" I replied, "Someone told me."

It hurt. It really did. My own best friend. He was right not to be ready to tell me. He knew I'd be upset. But why did I have to be the last to know? Why do people have to keep leaving me? Is it selfish to want my closest friends to stay with me? I was really upset with him when we talked during 3rd. He asked me "Why are you mad? I'm the one moving." It's because I didn't find out from him. He asked "Did your brother tell you?" and I said no. But in the back of my mind I was thinking to myself, you told my brother but not me.

I asked Goh about it after his graduation, which I performed at (and had a total blast aside from the super bad open blisters), and he told me that Vince had told me. My brother had asked Vince when he was going to tell me, and Vince had replied that he didn't know.

When I asked him why he didn't tell me earlier today, he said he wasn't ready to. I asked him, "Then when would have you been ready? When you were gone? Today's the last day of school." He told me "When I felt it was right." It would've never been right. Never. My own best friend knew how I'd feel. I'm appreciative that he knows me so well, but upset that he didn't tell me. Insanity.


Stop freaking leaving me. I don't like crying, and I don't like crying because my closest friends keep leaving.

But I suppose I can't do anything about it. It's not up to me. Vince T., I am going to miss you so insanely much. I've known you since the third grade. To lose you now? It is pure agony and insanity. But I can't be selfish. The world does not revolve around me. I love you my best friend, and you've done insanely much for me this year. You are the best locker buddy. We have our ups and downs but who doesn't? You've been there through everything. And I didn't know your dad knew who I was, but oh well. Thank you for everything. I love you best friend<3 Make the most of out Texas. Start over. You'll do fine. Please please please visit often. Good luck my dear.x3

I'll write more about my day when I stop crying.