There are many days where I don't concern myself with what others think of me. I don't bother because I honestly don't care. There are people out who do understand me, and to me, those are the people that matter most. Everyone else is insignificant. The people who do understand who I am and who I can be.. those people are vital to who I am. I know that this isn't exactly what is on my mind but it's the only thing I can possibly articulate at the moment and I don't know why.

The things that I want to say are meant for my journal at the moment. The things that I do not want to share with the world but I'm simply too lazy to write it by hand. It's not that I don't want to fix things. I do, obviously. But it's that things have changed so drastically that I don't know where to start. What do you want me to say? Do you want me to apologize? For what? For my mom not allowing me to go? I don't believe that is my fault. If you want to go, go ahead. No one's stopping you. The thing is I planned on her saying yes. I didn't think she'd actually say no. On top of that, I was not the one that suggested cancelling it on my behalf. I was the one who suggested that you guys go anyway. But she said that it wouldn't have been the same. To be honest, I don't believe that is my problem. No one bailed on you. It wasn't something that was set in stone. It was something we  thought would be a fun trip. But not everything is going to turn out the way we want it to. Not everything is going to work out. Things change. You should know that better than anyone else we know.

So many thoughts are running through my mind and I can't seem to sort them out. This calls for a 'repeat-worthy' song.