I don't know what you want me to say.

I'm trying. And criticizing me doesn't get us to where you want us to be. You can't squish something that was achieved over a span of 6 years into one. You can't force me to be a certain person. You can't push me to be who you want me to be. It's your pushing that prevents me from being who you want me to be. I've never had someone depend on me this way and it's hard. If you want me to do something with all my heart, don't try to force it. Cause one day, I will be at that point. But at this moment in time, I'm not. It's not that I don't appreciate you and you know it. At least you should. I know you're going through a lot of things right now but so am I. There's a lot more going on than I let you know, that I let anyone know.

Rome wasn't built in a day.
A friendship like that can't be built in one year. It takes time.
I feel like you're trying to force it to get to that point in the shortest amount of time possible.
It's not something you can force.

Just have faith in me.
Have faith in the person I am, in the person I can be.
Because like you said, you know me.
Just give it time. It'll get there.