People are always going to talk.

Here's my response to another blogpost:
I apologized to Philip a million times the morning that I forgot the speakers. He didn't tell you that, did he? Yes, I am referring to your blog post. No, I'm not offended. Because it was my fault that I forgot. But I did apologize so please do not go around assuming I didn't. And if you really want Lien to hear you, speak up. I didn't kick anyone out of top 3.  He did. My voice is an opinion, not a decision. People are going to talk about me regardless of what happens, because they don't know me. And apparently, neither do you. But I don't blame you. I've known you for a very short amount of time. I am competitive. It's a known fact, but I was not upset that I lost, or tied, or whatever.

Because of this ridiculous and silly competition, I've lost friends and made enemies. People are making snap second judgments about someone they don't know. I honestly don't care what people think about me. But if it was someone I trusted, then that changes everything. Because of the past few weeks, I've become so paranoid about everything. I'm not going to subside into a quiet little hermit crab because that's simply not the type of person I am. I will voice my opinion regardless. Yes, at times I can be quite mindless. Yes, I am constantly angry at Mouse. It just happens. I won't hold back or pretend to be someone I'm not. I would never do that. I'm also not going to change myself for people who don't even believe in me. People are going to talk, regardless of what I do, say or what happens. That's just life. But I can honestly say, I did not expect it from you. If you had a problem, you could just talk to me. Yes, I know that losing my temper does nothing for me. But I am a perfectionist. Go ahead and say anything. Because from here on out, you've lost my trust completely. Everyone apparently thinks I'm an angry bitch, and considering all the shit I had to go through in middle school because of half the people in my classes, I don't understand why I wouldn't be. I had a cruddy childhood. I won't lie. It wasn't always flowers and rainbows. But did you know that? I bet not. It's funny because you act like you know me so well. I would never say that I know you like that. The thing is, if you know me well enough, you know that I would never get angry at you.

I hate how you make assumptions about me. You still have no idea what's going on. Well my bad for not wanting my group to make a fool of themselves. And for the record, I never said I was going to win first place. I would never say anything like that seriously. I joked about it every single time. Get your shit straight. Good job. You tore me down. Is this what you wanted? Isn't that everyone's aim lately? Cause if it's not, then  I'm pleasantly surprised. Stand in my shoes, and you'd fucking understand. But you wouldn't even try, and I know it. So good luck okay? Have a good fucking life. You've lost me.