Twenties Girl

I know it's been days since I've blogged. But in my defense, my laptop has been down so I haven't gotten a chance to go online besides today because I stole my brother's keyboard. So what is there to tell?

Oh today I realized I hate romance novels. Why? Because they remind me of everything I don't have. It's needless to say that 'you don't need a guy to be happy' is.. a complete damn lie. Everyone knows that pretty much the only people who can be happy without love in their life are probably workaholics, super feminists who get pissed easily, and super independent people. I've realized that the past few guys I've had a crush on never liked me back. Which I guess kind of sucks if you think about it. Even if I hate romance novels, I still read them because it makes me happy for the heroine that did fall in love.

I finished Queen of Babble today. It was a cute book. Not one that made a lasting impression however. I've read other books with a similar plot with a bit more substance. However, I love the male lead, Luke. Very sensitive, and he listens and remembers things.

You know, I can't help but to think there's something wrong with Grey. Maybe it's in the way he talks to me now. As if he doesn't really want to talk to me. That's fine with me. I don't really mind. I don't want to accuse him of something that might not be true. It makes me feel stupid to keep sticking around. This friendship had a very nice start. It was nice, and fun. Maybe cause he was new and I didn't know him, but now things have obviously changed. I don't know what, but they have. I believe I officially need a new texting buddy.

I read something on Sags' blog that made me smile. She said she likes my blog and she checks everyday. That made me smile. It made me feel as if there's a reason to keep writing. I've missed writing but I realize I've also missed reading. I started reading again recently and I absolutely love it. I'm starting a new book today from one of my favorite authors, Sophie Kinsella. It's a new release from her called Twenties Girl. The plot doesn't sound as captivating as her other books but I'm excited to read it.

I went to a bar for the first time the other night for Stalker's 21st birthday. Might I mention I am way underage? I got in because of some connections but it was way awkward. Stalker was very.. touchy. He's a touchy, huggy drunk. I sat with Bosco's dad on my right and Hailey on my left. On Hailey's left was Stalker. He kept hugging the both of us and it was so weird. He told me he liked me while he was way drunk. When we went inside for karaoke, he kept hugging me and at one point he kissed me on the cheek. After that, he hugged me and said "I need to talk to you." It felt completely awkward. Now he keeps texting and calling me to go out. I don't want to go. But I don't want to be mean because he's cool with almost everyone I know including both my brothers, Pink, my coaches, and Hailey. I've known Hailey for about 6-7 years now. And for her sake, I don't want to ruin anything. But Hailey understands how weird it is. Not only is the age difference way too big, it's just awkward. Regardless of how important inner beauty is, I can't get past his outer 'beauty.' Shallow. I know. But everyone is like this. I'm a hypocrite. I admit it. I just can't stand it. He texts me often and here's the thing, I never gave him my number. I can't take this. I need him to keep his distance.

My lovely best friend Adonnis got me a Michael Jackson shirt, and I love it. It's absolutely perfect. I can't believe she actually bought it for me when she saw it. Aw man I love her so much. I called her right after my brother threw it at me. Then we had a three way call with Vince as well. It was fun. Vince kept imitating me and attempted to be me. What's worse is that Adonnis actually thought it was me when he was imitating me. Really Adonnis, Really? It was fun though.

I guess there's not much worth reading today. There will be. Soon. I hope?

Currently Listening to;; NOTHING. I DON'T HAVE SPEAKERS.

Edit: I've thought about this friendship with Grey for a very long time. I keep wondering what I should do about it. Should I let things be the way they are? Should I try to make an effort to make things better? Should I just end the friendship because I'm not getting what I want out of it? But I can't force anyone to do anything they don't want to. All I can think about is whether to stay or leave. He doesn't need me. But not all your friends need you. When school starts, I know things won't be the same. But then I ask myself, just because it's not an amazing super friendship doesn't mean I have to end it. Maybe we'll become those friends that pass each other in the hall and say hi once in awhile. Who knows? We'll be strangers by the time school starts. That's truly the only way to explain the thoughts going through my head. So Grey, what do you think?