Sand Crabs

I'm watching LA Ink and Kat Von D just said something that really just made me think. This cambodian man got a portrait of his parents done. His parents had gone through the war in Cambodia. The man was born in a concentration camp. I just finished summer school and war makes me.. cry. Badly. We watched Hotel Rwanda and you have no idea how much I love that movie. I cried twice. Although the movie isn't the real footage, knowing that it was a true story hurt so much. I can't believe humans can be so cruel. I can't believe people can just stand by, watch and do nothing. How can they do that? How can they just let people die? So many people.. Hotel Rwanda is an amazing movie. And that man. He's amazing. He did all he could even though he was Hutu. If you don't know what Hotel Rwanda is about, it's about the civil war in Africa between the Hutus and the Tutsis. The Hutus were the majority group in South Africa and the Tutsis were the minority. When Belgium left South Africa, they left the minority in charge because of their appearance. At one point, the Hutus began to revolt and soon it became genocide. Millions were killed. Hotel Rwanda showed Hutus slitting throats, so many dead bodies, and desperate people. I can't believe humans can be so cruel... Sigh.

We also walked Valkyrie. I liked the story line but it could've been better. I don't know how, but it could've. It was nice, and quite interesting.

Today was the last day of summer school and even though I aced the class, it made me.. so upset. I felt as if I were losing people. I met some amazing people. People who laugh at my lame jokes, and people who will be tehre. But they don't go to my school. I don't know when I'll see them next. They matter to me. Adonnis thinks I love people too easily. Perhaps it's true but I really do love them. When I was walking with my friends to Starbucks, I was so close to crying. Grey even asked if I was going to. Hearing that caused me to hold it back. I'm going to miss them so much.

You know.. LA Ink's customers have some pretty amazing stories. Love it.

You know, I was very angry at Grey today. I'm not mad anymore, but he really pissed me off. It has nothing to do with him being camera shy. It's what he said to Sags. He said "How much time do you need me to spend with you?" or something along those lines. Do you know how that makes me feel? After doing so much for him, that's what he's going to say? I don't regret helping him. I'm not complaining that I have. I don't expect anything in return. But that hurts. He shouldn't feel like he has to spend time with us. He should want to spend time with us. I don't want to force him to do anything he doesn't want to. If he doesn't want to hang out with us, then don't. If you're just around to thank us for what we did, I don't need it anymore. That's not what I'm here for. I could leave for all I care. But I don't want things to end up like the way they did with Green. I'm in this for the long haul not for some summer friendship. I can't stress that enough. You have no idea how many summer friendships I have had. And when they left me, it hurt. It always hurts. I don't want to go through that again.. Please don't make me. I don't want things to end up like they did with Garry. When Garry ignored me my whole freshman year, I felt like I lost a close friend. I had spent so much effort and so much time trying to make him a better person. I wanted him to become a better man. I tried so hard. And I know he did appreciate it. But when he stopped.. It hurt so much. I don't want to feel like I'm losing someone. And I don't want to feel like I wasted my time. Cause you know what? I hate wasting time on someone. Don't be one of them. Please don't cause me to lose faith. I really don't want to. I don't want to lose another one..