I've finally finished writing his chapter.

I don't want to go into details about what happened. All I remember is the one thing he said as well as how I walked away. I know that Jie is right. He is too immature for me. He doesn't click with me on that level. Perhaps that's the thing I could never quite put my finger on. That's what it was. But at the same time, he brought something fresh and new to the table. His immaturity and playfulness is what I fell for. It's also what destroyed this ... whatever 'this' is.

I remember I previously stated that I want to keep him in my life. I was wrong. I'm not sure if I want him in my life anymore. Maybe in time, I will. But at this very moment, I still feel like there's unfinished business. What it is, is actually that thing I've always wanted. For him to come talk to me. For him to initiate it for once. I'm so tired. I don't like how he led me on. I don't like how he pretended and played along just because it was my birthday. Screw that. I want you to do it because you want to. I want you to be honest with me. I've said this a million times. I'd rather you be honest and hurt me than lie and hurt me. Because lies hurt more than the truth for me. If you're honest with me, I'll forgive you. If you ever lie to me, you've just destroyed any trust I've ever had in you.

I think that's what got me most. Because he lied to me. Just like Kip had. I have terrible trust issues and he just made it worse. So screw you. Thanks for screwing over the next 100 guys.