His Last Page

I believe tomorrow will be the end of him. Why? Because I imagined the scenario in my dreams last night. It was a perfectly ever after. But it just so happens that my reality is the opposite of my dreams. Therefore, I believe tomorrow will be his last page in his chapter.

I did like you. There's no doubt about it. But I'm too much of a coward to take the risk. I'm not one to put myself out there and get hurt. I would very much like to know the truth. But you're shy. I just want the truth. I'd much rather have you say you don't feel anything at all to my face then string me along and allow me to think. I'm not into playing games. And this? It feels like an awfully long game.

At the same time, I believe it was bad timing for the sole fact that you came in while I was still ending Teal's chapter. You feel like a rebound to me. I like you. But I want to know the truth. I'd much rather you tell me once. Then have me guess forever. I'm always on edge. But lately, I've been so busy that I haven't been thinking about it.

But you cost me that 2:28. You cost me my time. Because of all these games. You destroyed my focus. You kept me from getting what I went out to get. What I set out for. That's what hurts the most. Knowing that the thought of you can completely destroy me. Of course I want you in my life. You remind me of something special, but at the same time, I'm tired. I hate this feeling of wonderment. I hate it. It's tearing me to pieces.

If you don't feel the same, then stop playing along. Stop pretending that you do. Don't hold my hand. Don't hug me back. Don't wait for me. Just stop.

Stop leading me on.