Better Twogether

You know, Adonnis knows I'm not keen on going, but I really want to go for her; to make up for all the times I've been a bad friend. Cause I know I am. I'm extremely selfish, and I'm aware of it. I wish I was a better friend. I do. I realized that every time Adonnis asks me to go somewhere with her, I practically always say no; and yet if it were flipped, she always says yes. She never says no, and she tries her best to make me laugh. She's so lenient with me that I feel it's unfair. I feel like if I go, I'll be able to make it up to her. Gummy Bear thinks that since she's my best friend, she'd understand that I wouldn't want to go because I don't have a date. However, I feel like that's a bad excuse. This is one of the few things I can honestly do for her. I've been so out of it lately cause of Teal.

Adonnis is right. I should take a risk, just like she did. Like her, I'm not always as outgoing and daring as I seem. I can be extremely shy and afraid. I'm only myself when I'm around her.♥ I'm only who I am because she reminds of me the person I was back in 8th grade. I never told her this. I don't know why. But in 8th grade, I was loud and crazy. When I got to high school, everything mellowed out. I was shy and quiet again, but when I met Donna, everything changed. Everything went back to the way it used to be. I was myself again because she made me feel comfortable. And for that, I really have to thank her. I love you honey. So so much. And I feel like I don't tell you enough or show you enough. I don't want a gold star for the things I do for you. It's just things I should already be doing. It just makes me happier to see that I can make you feel better. I love you Adonnis.

Edit: Jie, you know I've been there through thick and thin. You're out of the loop because you didn't tell me what's going on. I figured if you were going to complain about it, I wouldn't care. I thought long and hard about it. I knew you weren't going to be okay with what happened that night. I knew that somehow you were going to complain or vent about. I also knew that I wouldn't be able to stand it. You have someone who cares about. You have someone who cares about you so much, and you don't care? To be honest, I find it hard to believe. Because this is what you've wanted all along. What's so wrong with that? It's finally working out. Just let it be. It's better than being me who watches from afar. Watching someone, whom I know for a fact, like someone else. Just be glad it happened.