The Thing I Hate About My Summer.

I didn't hate it at the time, but I do now. I hate realizing that I've been used. I hate realizing that I've been dropped like a hot potato. And I hate realizing that I care. You know he was pretty important to me. His letters brought a smile to my face, and I couldn't wait to write back. When no one else wrote to him, or cared, I was there. When he had no connection to the outside world except for his mother and me, I was there. But now, it seems as if he doesn't even care to talk to me. I feel stupid because he still misses her.

I used to love the song "You Belong With Me." No matter how many times they played it on the radio, I'd sing along every single time. But now? I change the station right when I hear it. I really can't stand that song anymore. I honestly wish I hadn't clicked that damn link. Ignorance is bliss. I should be doing homework.

You know, this whole thing with Yellow feels exactly the same as Grey.
I thought Grey would be the only one to let me down. I figured Yellow would always be there for me, always be one of my friends. I could've sworn that he was going to stick around this time.
But somehow, he always disappears. Then he reappears a few months later.
And every time he disappears, it always hurts.
He promised he won't leave this time.
He promised he'd stick around.
What a fucking liar.
Excuse my french, but seriously.
I'm sick of lies. Over the past few months, I can tell that I've grown to be more independent. I can see that I hardly depend on others anymore. The thought of giving everything to a guy sickens me.

Grey's been .. well, the things I've heard about him aren't great. Apparently he's isolating himself from pretty much all the close gal friends he had. I don't say hi to him at all anymore. We're back to being strangers, but you know, I won't ever forget the good memories I had with him. He was a good friend at the time.

I guess that's why people aren't bitter when things go bad. They focus on the good memories left behind instead of the horrible ending. I should be more like them. I should be more optimistic.

Superman Superman Superman. <3
I love Superman.