Avalanche

Avalanche - Marie Digby.

Enough Said.

Busy busy busy.

Must work hard in school.


I'm afraid to go back and read those letters,
because I'm afraid my heart just might break
into a million little pieces.
And there will be no one to put them back together.

I'm happy without a guy.
I can live.
I know I'll live.
But I can't stand the thought of losing an amazing friend.
But the thing is.. he's gone.
And this time?
I'm not waiting. I'm not waiting for his return.
I spent my entire summer waiting for letters.
But he left me without a word once again.
I don't need it.
I have so much more to live for.

I hate that some of my closest friends are feeling so out of it.
I hate the fact I can't do anything about it.
I hate the fact that they feel like they have to degrade themselves.
They are some of the most amazing people I know.
And it hurts that they don't know that.
Leeann. Annie.
You two are some of the greatest people I have ever met.
Annie, we just click. We just do. And I miss you terribly.
I miss walking to class with you.
I miss telling you everything.
I miss fooling around in class.
I miss everything.
I miss being able to comfort you, and being able to hug you.
Leeann, we've known each other since 8th grade.
You're the funniest person I know.
We've had so many good times.
If you feel like your group of friends isn't right for you,
you always have me. Always.
I don't want you to feel like you have to change yourself
 or that you have to put yourself down to 'fit in.'
You have so many other people who are cheering you on
and would love to hang out with you every single damn day.
I love you two so so much.
I wish I could do more than just type words on my laptop.
Because they might not be as affective.
They might not tell the whole truth.
They might not be able to show what I feel.
The despair, and pain, and guilt.
The feeling of being able to do nothing.
You two are so amazing, and so beautiful.
Don't let these people bring you down my loves.
Always here.