Dear Japan,

It's been years since I've seen you. Although things are quite different this year, it's nice to think back to when it was us, or the thought of us at least. I was young, naive child then. But look at me now. Look at us now. Our lives are so different. You have her, you have this and that. You have your world. Then there's my world. One that you've seem to be left out of. My world.. My friends, my family, my loves. And despite all that separate us, there's something that connects us always. It's that simple past. That night you came into my room, sat down on my bed, and began to fool around with my guitar. It was that night you knocked on my door, and gave me a hug. It was that warm summer day when I folded a heart-shaped box filled with blue stars and a single pink one, to represent that you were one in a million to me. Indeed, things are insanely different. But I will always love you and always care for you, but perhaps not in the way I used to. You're happy now, as am I. Every summer, I'd wait to see you, but these past few summers, I've let you go. I've realized that I can't put the rest of my life on hold for one person. That's simply not the type of person I am. You are such an amazing person. Your smile will always bring happiness to those around you. Your laughter is simply addicting and contagious. I wish you luck on all your future endeavors, but perhaps this is my final goodbye to you. Goodbye dear, and I will always love you Japan (:

As for the rest of my world, it's in a bit of shambles. A simple stupid worthless little fight with Jie, unexplainable surprise and a tinge of pain, physical injuries and wow am I tired.

I've been waiting for the 2nd letter, but I'm worried that my first letter has yet to arrive at the destination. If it has, why is it that I haven't received a letter yet? Worst case scenario? The letter never made it there. But let's not worry about that.

Let's name this new guy.. Grey. Yeah that works. Grey is an exceptionally nice guy. Kor Jie doesn't think it's a good idea since she treats him like a little brother. She thinks I'm going to corrupt him with my evil, mischievous ways. No I don't like Grey. But he really is a nice guy. I found out about TK from Orange last night. Grey was unhappy last night, and there was nothing I could do about it. I wish I could. Grey doesn't cuss, he's not perverted, and he doesn't lie. Well at least he promised not to lie to me. (: Which is a good thing. But the thing about Grey, is that he reminds me so much of Green. Green and Grey are friends, but it bugs me that Grey types so much like him. When he talks, it's not quite the same, but when he texts or IMs me. It's that one smiley I absolutely hate because of Green. Grey's trying his best not to use it. Which I'm happy that he is. But our 'circle of trust' has yet to be created. Although I don't know Grey as well as I'd like yet, I believe he deserves all the happiness in the world. I believe everyone deserves all the happiness in the world. (:

There's this person. Let's name him Corn. He's about 5-6 years older than me. And he scares me. He got my Screenname as well as my number from someone, and has been talking to me constantly. I blocked him on AIM in hopes of avoiding him. I know it's not a very nice thing to do, but he creeps me out. There's many other facets of this situation, but I prefer not to think about them.

I have many injuries to my body. My shoulder blade, and both knees are not working the way they're supposed to. Lots of RICE are needed to heel these parts of my body, but I need my knees to play polo. It kills me to know that my knees will hurt everytime I get in the water. Needless to say that polo is my absolute favorite sport. I have such a passion for it. However, I can't play for more than 2 minutes without my right knee hurting. I've learned to deal with it as much as possible. There's so much drama in polo, and it's not worth it. Drama isn't what I need. It's not the reason I joined polo. I joined polo, to learn the sport. When I learned the sport, I fell in love. I'll get over it. Hopefully, things will go back to normal as soon as possible.

I've found a best friend in Dee. She's an amazing person, and I love her. Though our taste in music is unbelievably different, I love her for all that she has done for me. She listens, she restrains me from doing stupid things, and she holds me when I need a hug. She's someone I can truly depend on, and I love her. (:

Well, there isn't much to say here. Hopefully life gets less hectic.