Dear Grey,

I don't know if you'll read this. Perhaps you won't. Perhaps Orange will tell you. But these past few days, I know they've been hard on you. But I guess it's been harder on us. Sags and I really do feel like rebound friends. You ran away from us after a simple comment. Then after school, you walked right past me and didn't even say goodbye. Do you know what that felt like? There's no use confronting you because I know you won't care. I don't like going into a friendship thinking 'this won't end well.' But I do. And I was right. I should be okay with it. But when you reassured me that this isn't a summer friendship, the more it seemed to be. Sags and I have spent countless hours, IMs and texts getting to know you. I left my own friends to go to you so that you wouldn't feel awkward. We've done a lot for you in a short amount of time. I've tried to comfort you constantly. I gave you my wisest advice and the best I could think of. Just so that you were happy. But when my world started to all apart, you didn't say much because you claimed you didn't know what to say. I keep telling myself not to pull the same stunts again, because I know the end result. But I can't help it. I'm hoping this isn't a goodbye. Because if it is, I know I'll regret it. Things have changed in the past few days, and it's obvious. You're not person I thought you were. You said time would tell if our friendship would last. You told me to 'just wait.' I've waited. I don't think it'll last because it seems I've put in more effort than you have. I'm sorry if I'm a jerk because I actually care. I'm sorry if I'm not fun to hang around with because I'm upset. But I'm upset because things have changed so much. I also feel as if I changed myself to fit your criteria. Although I have said I wanted to change these things before, I honestly have. But it feels too foreign to me. You said that even if you fixed things with them, you'd still hang with me and Sags. Look at what happened today. You were with us for a split second. You don't even seem to care. If you do, you'll try to fix things. Cause you know what? It hurts to feel like the only one trying. It hurts to feel like I've lost a friend before I've made one. But until then, I guess I'll see you around.